I’m not getting any younger

I had a really hard time after singing this song. The lyric taps into my fear that lifetime love and companionship will pass me by altogether. I’m so loved by so many amazing people and what a wonderful community I’ve been given, but I’m referring now to that singular love that transcends others and becomes the central commitment of human relationship. I’ve had enough conversations to know that many others of you share the same fears. It surely does not help that my desire is so specific. I want one girl, and other than her, I’m not willing to commit. What that does is seriously reduce the odds (to like, one in impossible), since that one girl is not interested in me. And that puts me in a little 4 x 4 wooden room full of microphones, singing at the top of my hurt, “I’m not getting any younger…”

I limped out of there and melancholied my way home.

I’ll be back to work with Stephen again next month. We’re doing something more upbeat this time. I know that Nidia, Wanee and LeAnne really like next month’s song: Somewhere Over The Rainbow.